Monday Monday

I am in Starbucks, working on my book editing skills.(mostly drawing a blank) and so I've switched momentarily to blogging. It is amazing to me how when I feel like giving up, God asks me to, in fact, give up. It's not like I'm saying "I'm fat" and He's saying "Yeah you are!" Its like I'm saying "I can't do this..I'm going to quit and give up" and He's saying "Finally, i've been trying to tell you I have a better plan." Last night in church, our pastor asked us to consider if we are following God as we see fit to follow such a God or if we are following Him as He asks us to... I am so guilty of this so often. I hold myself to such standards, which I fail at and think that I am honoring God in my trying at least. The reality is, I cannot blame my type A, control freak tendency on the name of "following the Lord". He asks a lot of me, but nothing that isn't rightfully His already. and He always always always always makes the way. Why wouldn't He? If He healed the great divide that is sin, if He conquered sin and death, if He lives to make intercession for me-- Will He not also make a way for me to follow after Him in working/serving/living/loving? I'm not saying I got a full time position somewhere and cheap rent somewhere pretty. I am saying that He is my All in All and I trust Him to make a way as I submit applications and google research apartments. what a lovely life. What a momentary life! And now back to book editing! Enjoy your Monday!