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Well,with Thanksgiving in two days I am forced to think and to attempt to prepare myself for the madness that is family gathering. Some people are jaded by car accidents and fundamental churches..mine is too much family in one room. HAH
Don't get me wrong, i LOVE my family. I love that our dysfunctional-ness is widely accepted and almost appreciated. I love getting to see them. I love the yummy food that we all make. But I can't stand being forced to play mediator all day. That is to my shame.
"Blessed are the peacemakers.."
If i take a serious look at the sermon on the mount, it calls me to give up this irrationality immediately. So my hesitancy is contained and is within. But this is the avenue to which I will admit I am so selfish!
I hate that because my family can't keep the house clean we're gonna stress out all day Wednesday cleaning it for people coming Thursday who know we have a messy house.
I dislike that all Thursday morning up until the eating is going to be a race to see who can hold on to their dignity the longest and not argue over ridiculous things.
I dislike that family times can't be a normal thing that we respond to normally.
I hate broken homes.
I can't stand that I had to turn down visiting other family who doesnt get along with whoever or whatever and therefore I won't see them.
CRAZY TALK!
It's so much easier to just be in school, NOT over eat, not do dishes.
But I LOVE my family.
and it is my calling and JOY to serve them.
and to show them love "in deed and in truth".



Lord, please help me to relay the thankfulness that is in me.
Be my strength and my Joy.
My Song and my Smile.
My Beloved Savior, bring salvation to my household.
A to the MAN.
I pray to be able to show love to my family as Christ shows love to me.