ஸ்டார்டிங் பாயிண்ட்

For some weird reading my title just posted in what I believe is Thai.. Anyone know why? ( who am I talking to really?)

It says "Starting Point" in case ya were wondering.
So today, I find myself at peace in a place I know God wants me to be that I didn't not expect nor think I was going to be okay with. And furthermore, I am now resolved to love it and love it passionately. To bloom and provoke others to awe in God's glory.

I heard an example/metaphor that I would love to someday have sum up my life, it goes like this..
There is this master painter, he is world renown and amazing! He approaches you and says that he'd would absolutely love to paint your portrait. You ask him if he's sure then quickly agree before he changes his mind.
You meet up and he paints you. He takes his time making sure to make every detail pleasing to his eye and just so. He finishes and he is excited about it but he won't let you see it. He wants you to come to its unveiling at the gallery.
So you show up to the gallery. There it is displayed on the way with a thick white veil waiting to be pulled off. The gallery is packed and people are looking at the walls filled with paintings.
But, when they unveil the painting everyone is in awe. They surroung the painting and gawk at its beauty. It is so fantastic, so bomb and amazing that the whole gallery's fill of people is just staring. It is SO beautiful, in fact, that they don't ask "who is that girl?" but rather, "WHO PAINTED THIS?"

The idea being that the painting isnt inherently great itself but the skill it is a result of is noteworthy and praiseworthy(originally this story is told about the Church) but I'd love for this to be said of my life. Not in a shallow way either, but in awe of God turning a broken life into a beautiful and special life to His GLORY. That like 1 Corinthians says I'd be a mirror reflecting the glorious image of Christ Jesus.
How amazing. Anything significant in me or my life is simply a result of God's grace moving me from being a child of wrath to being His daughter!
I am humbled. and reproved. and adored by a Living Almighty God of Justice.
I am held so tenderly in the arms of He who has the power to destroy body and soul.
I am LOVED.
I am my Beloved's and He is mine and His banner over me is LOVE.
What outrageous thoughts!

It is so hard to remember to write here everyday though I genuinely feel it would be more helpful to have this to look back on and less burden to lay on others.I am pretty sure that is how I made it through jr.high...
This week was rough. In reality I have been so far away.
Go figure that I spend the weekend away getting built up and shaken up to come home and love my family with a fervor and serve the body sacrificially to find a pile of homework that literally robs all my sleep.
I woke up Monday to that awful sound that I haven't heard in so long that can break my heart and drive me to my knees faster than anything I've ever known.
The day didn't get so much better but I have really learned to make the JOY of the Lord my strength. He is unfailing. truly. and is the strength of my heart when it fails me.
The good two noticed instantly! I am so thankful for women who KNOW me even though we have nothing in common outside of Christ and a relatively new acquaintances. They bless me and challenge me so much.
And now by the hour, it's Friday.Tomorrow. or I guess later today has it's own slew of troubles. But it never end with troubles.
Today in Isaiah I was reading just after the restoration of Israel. So I suppose this promise is to Israel but I am going to claim it for me too. It is prophetic literature after all..God says that in the day the Lord shall give you rest from your sorrow and from your fear and from the bondage in which you were made to serve.
Glory to God in the highest!