Blogging

In college, I found my voice on my blog in the midst of a small room full of theology books that were plucked and poured over by many great thinkers and friends. It was in the small corner computer, I typed my thesis, created a Pinterest and often spoke my mind and devotion here on this blog.

I am slowly coming to find that God gives me many opportunities to use my voice, my intellect and the many days I spent in the little room..and it's usually not in blog format. It's usually in prayer, it's mostly with small children who could care less who I've read lately and how different theologians changed my life. I'm finding my voice in ministry is a soft one, with less opinions, less sources cited and a lot of awkward real life pauses.

I am so thankful. 

Sometimes, the rose colored lenses I wear when I reminisce to my sweet college days (I sound so old..well, they all started addresses me as "Ms.Malia" instead of "Miss Malia")

Well these glasses make everything that has past seem so much sweeter than what is and what is coming.

The beauty of trusting Jesus is simply that the past becomes more and more beautiful the farther away you get because you see Hid mighty hand orchestrating it more clearly- BUT the present, the now, the here- that's where I can truly experience Him and so

I guess I am realizing two things:

1. I don't really want to blog anymore.

I'm lousy at it anyhow

2. I want to spend less time looking at a screen and more time in silence before The Lord as he fills the holes in my heart, repairs the tears of my day to day world and uses my voice for His glory.

Maybe this is temporary.

Maybe I do just want to delete apps from my phone.

But maybe The Lord is challenging me to engage and submit my heart and mind to Him rather than process it through on a screen.

May we all submit to His moving and graciousness...whatever that may look like!