Not like eating on the run or while studying or enjoying a view but to be alone in the middle of my work parking lot secluded in my car.. Sure, AC and music were my friends.. But really can they count as friends?
I could barely stomach my healthy and simple packed lunch when my mind started to wander to the awesomeness of past lunches at college or with friends or hopes of future lunches with people I enjoy.
And it hit me as I began to journal..
It's not a matter of putting on my brave woman pants or emotionalism.
It's a tiny memento that questions-
do you really mean what you said yesterday?
Is Jesus really better than (insert inherently good object/person/idea here)? Are you seriously okay with being alone to gain His friendship?
Today was hard, but in that moment of clarity I opened His word to be reminded, by one of my favorite passages ever, of my election& His sovereignty!
"32 He who did not spare his own Son but gave him up for us all, how will he not also with him graciously give us all things? 33 Who shall bring any charge against God's elect? It is God who justifies."
Romans 8:32&33
Today was hard, but He is,in fact, better.
I wonder if I'll ever stop learning just how much better..I hope not!
Strangely, I don't feel sad at all eating homemade dessert alone:) Thankfully hahaha because I'm dying for warm chocolate chip banana bread!
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Reading this made me so sad inside!!!! Which I was able to share lunches with you again!! But I am so glad that the Lord is using ALL to show you the glory and majesty of Himself!! Love you!!
ReplyDelete"Today was hard, but He is, in fact, better."
ReplyDeleteBeautiful... those days are so wonderfully difficult. they are sweet when we get to the joy of knowing Him just a little more. I think that is how we will feel when we stand before Him, when our joy is complete in the morning... "that was hard, but You are, in fact, better"