Facing the freak outs!

Some fun facts: I love alliterations..and irony.And I am a fixer..If there's a problem, I will fix or die trying.

    Oh the Irony...every place I applied to last week, is a place I will not be working at or attending ...At least, not any time soon. I wish I could say it was because something crazy awesome happened and none of those choices are needed. But alas, the truth is rejection, rules and well, I have to believe the sovereignty of God. Which certainly does make for a good laugh considering that entire day of applying thoroughly stressed me out. God knows best though right? of course He does!
   In hindsight, I can see that perhaps I was a little ahead of myself. But I do need some kind of income.
The thing is, I cannot fix every potential problem that arises because God is using them in my life to guide me, teach me and bring glory to Himself.
   I can only imagine that Sarah had similar and perhaps even better intention and motivation for giving Hagar to Abraham.. But really could she think that God would fail to uphold the Abrahamic Covenant? It seems silly to me. Or Rebekah deceitfully intervening in order that Isaac would bless Jacob.. Or what must have been going through Rachel's mind when she stole her father Laban's idols and when confronted sat on them and played the period card. Or Uzza who was struck dead when he reached out  to catch the Ark of the Covenant when it was falling. Certainly, these actions proceeded from very justified thoughts and perhaps good intentions. These actions were not inherently bad(given the customs or culture), but God did not honor them, nor was He pleased by them. Man's attempt to "fix" God's "problems" have always ended tragically.
   Faith, on the other hand, can at least be minimally defined ( but not limited to) conscious ascent. The problem us made know to me. I take it to the Lord. I have faith that A. He's taking care of me and B.He knows what is best. Obviously, this is the case or Christ would not have gone to the cross for me!
 This is a direct contradiction to "freaking out". Which seems to happen to me about once a week or so. Faith is so beautiful.. I would venture to say it is a natural characteristic of a heart submitted to the Lord. Like that of Christ in the Garden and I pray for such a heart. A submitted heart full of faith, what a beautiful thing that most certainly is!


 
My weekend and Halloween was a blast.
I got to be Queen Esther at the church's Fall Fest. Who doesn't like dressing like a beautiful Queen and handing out free prizes to some of the world's most adorable children? I certainly enjoyed it!



And I finally got around to my pumpkin carving and painting and glittering :)

 

 

Have a good week! May you grow to trust and love the Jesus more through all things!