Beyond Expectations

Yesterday was Sunday which equals a day of ministry. A day of walking in the good works the Lord has set before me.. in this season of life, it is most specifically youth ministry, though I know the Lord continually challenges my view of ministry and church and friendship etc.
To make a long, dry story short-- I didn't want to be there. Surprise.

Luckily for me, I've (almost) learned to pretty much always ignore my feelings and be somewhat logical. So I went. I set up, I listened, I engaged the kids that I've come to love so much, I tore down, I sat in service, I rushed to a meeting, I survived the meeting and by the time I made it home I was on the brink of crying or going for a run...
So to the track I went. Why am I telling you this?
Because it's life..even if it seems trivial.When I feel at a loss for words, understanding, vision and encouragement-- The Lord still calls me to TRUST Him.
So I ran three miles.... in solitude..with my bad attitude still fully in tact. The Lord told me to trust Him to provide for me just as He does the sparrows..Which was not anywhere near the answer to my deeply clouded problems that I was looking for.
The last thing I wanted to do was go to church again in the evening, this time though I figured that meant I needed to be there. and away I went.
Again, the Lord met me in the Word and told me to trust Him.
He met me in communion and reminded me that I am forgiven and loved and told me once more to trust Him. After all, which is harder-- to trust the process of Christ on the cross expiating my sins and restoring right relationship with God thereby enabling me to love Him OR to trust that what's in store for me will probably work out and be just what He wants...
The fact is He's trustworthy beyond our expectations.
I'm here to say "Hope in God", like Paul in Acts 27! Don't abandon the hope that is in you. Remember Christ who saved your soul and keeps you daily is the One to whom we belong and serve.
And trust Him to move in your life just as I am learning to persevere in trusting Him to move in mine.
If you think of it, pray for me to trust Him more.